The five choices.

Dayana Z | Sunday, August 26, 2012 | 2Comments |
I'm currently having difficulties in choosing the five choices of universities.
Well, I've always had problems in selecting, thanks.

So the ones that I've chosen now is Warwick, Bath, Bristol, Exeter and Durham.
However, I don't have an ABB requiring university in this list, and I'm kinda worried for that.
How am I certain that I can maintain good grades for my A2? 

Why do I need to make things difficult by putting in Warwick that requires A*AA? 
Because Warwick is a top business school and it is in Coventry. I'm having doubts though on which subject can I score an A*, but why do I give up first without trying? What is with this low self-esteem and 'looking down on yourself' behaviour? What if I actually can, I might regret later of I don't at least try and apply. I know I should try, work hard and pray to Allah, because I might be able to do it if I want to, biiznillah. Sometimes things you don't expect tend to happen so maybe I'll just give it a go.

Why do I want to include both Bath and Exeter, both wanting AAA? 
Because Bath is a beautiful city! I mean really. Also, University of Bath is number 1 for Accounting and Finance, while Exeter is another choice of top 10 university for the subject.

City of Bath :) Haihh.

Then, Durham and Bristol accepts AAA-AAB.
The seniors have said that it is pretty easy to get conditional offers from Bristol and they accept AAB.
Durham University is also accepting AAB and it's in the north east. Esther and Sarah might be going there. Plus, the collegiate system really interests me.

Why don't I put in Kent, which requires ABB? The minimum requirement for PETRONAS is ABBC anyways - not that it's the results that I'm targeting, just to play safe.
Canterbury is a small town, close to London and Paris. University of Kent also has four campuses. Canterbury and Medway in England, one in France and another in Belgium which is great considering I might be able to have access to the other campuses. However, If I decide to add Kent into the list, I don't even know which university that I want to remove from the current list.

There's so many questions that I can't find the answer to - heh, yeah right. 


Dayana Z | Thursday, August 23, 2012 | 1Comments |
Happy Eid Mubarak!
A mixture of feelings, Ramadhan has passed, another year until the next Ramadhan comes.
Nevertheless, I'm all happy to be able to meet up with everyone during Eid. Ye, tidak menafikan saya makan  dan makan di setiap rumah yang saya kunjungi. Nanti apa pulak orang kata, dah datang kena lah menjamah hidangan betul tak? Kalau tak banyak pun sikit, kesian tuan rumah penat hidangkan makanan.
If you ask what is my favourite food during raya, I can't tell. I have no favourites really. Semua pun sedap :)!
In Malaysia, we usually serve rendang, lemang and ketupat. Some will serve laksa, fried mee, dodol, there is too much to list actually. You'd have to celebrate Eid in Malaysia yourself to feel the warmth and the joy.

Enjoying Aidilfitri doesn't mean that the ones in need are to be forgotten. Trying to put myself in their shoes, I know I won't really understand what they are going through, but at least I try. For them, Aidilfitri might cause a burden when there is this Malay tradition where you have to serve your guests with loads of food, and give little kids 'duit raya'. Yes, 'duit raya' can be a boost for children to complete their fasting in Ramadhan, but parents might have to start telling their children, that for some people, they might not be able to afford to give 'duit raya' so that children will not expect much or be judgmental to those who cannot afford to give as much as they expect. Imagine, serving food itself can already cost a few hundred. For some parents, they might not be able to afford new pairs of baju raya for their children unlike some others. It is sad thinking when you have all these beautiful clothes, you see other children envy you because of it. Although they don't potray such feeling, as a human being you can tell. Kadang-kadang bukan apa, mereka cuma teringin, nak juga baju raya 3 pasang, sofa baru, langsir baru. 
That is why Islam has stated that everything needs to be done moderately. That is also the reason why we have zakat. We distribute what Allah SWT has given to us to the ones in need, because we share.
Anda layak untuk berbelanja kerana anda telah bekerja keras?
Tahniah kerana anda layak mendapat pulangan yang selumayan itu, betul kita diarahkan untuk bekerja keras dan berusaha kerana Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum kecuali mereka yang mengubah nasib mereka sendiri. Namun kita kena sentiasa ingat, harta yang kita ada itu bukan milik kita. Yelah, kudrat nak bekerja pun Allah yang kurniakan. Semuanya milik Allah, jadi tak layaklah kita untuk simpan semuanya tanpa mengagihkan ke jalan Allah.

Sometimes, when you feel you don't have enough, you really need to see, truly see how hard life is for others. If you only see difficult moments on TV, try searching for ones that happen in front of you, test yourself, is your heart touched? When I was young, I thought the poorest in our country can at least afford to buy their basic needs. Maybe I wasn't exposed. I have a friend, who's 19th birthday is today. She told me stories, ones that touched my heart. Thanks to her, I know the world better.

Today, I try to help with things I can. 
I shall start small, but I dream big. 
InsyaAllah, there will be a way.

Inspired by, 
Asmina Mansur, Zahari Sharit, Qurratu 'Aini Izzati and Shamimah Yasmin.

Wallahu a'lam.

29 Ramadhan

Dayana Z | Monday, August 20, 2012 | 2Comments |
Alhamdulillah, thank you Ya Allah for blessing us with Ramadhan.
This holy month has opened my eyes to a lot of things.
Personally I learned a lot.  Muslim international students gave me a wake-up call and made me realize that we are too lucky to be born as a Malaysian Muslim. Not everybody has the pleasure to wake up to the azan during Subuh, to practice Islam freely. We walk in the streets without fear, without being judged just because there is cloth covering our heads. However, to some extent I must agree when my Muslim friend from China said that Malaysians hold on to Islam, but they don't open up to others. In other words, we do not do enough da'wah. Maybe she is exposed to only a certain part of the society, but in a way it is true.
She did mention that we are also practicing tradition, and not Islam itself.
So, let's look in the mirror and reflect on who we really are, things we have and have not done, shall we?

This Ramadhan, the Cambridge International Examination AS and A Level results came out. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah, Allah has made it an easy path for me to tread on. Well, the whole period of AS from May - June 2012 was traumatizing. I don't know how to go through A2 next year. All I can do is be prepared for the worst scenario and weird types of questions. Congratulations to fellow AL711 and my seniors AL510 for doing so well :) .

InsyaAllah we will be seeing you guys soon in the UK. We're getting there! InsyaAllah.

Counting to the 13th

Dayana Z | Sunday, August 05, 2012 | 5Comments |
It is never nice to actually count days, especially when you are waiting for something rather important in your life. Something big and you do not know what to expect and how to feel. Yes, I am talking about Cambridge International Examination GCE A/AS Level exam results. With no specific target this time - because the Cambridge board of exam style is so different from Malaysia's, I am just hoping and praying for the best.

The pressure is on, with the ones applying to Cambridge and Oxford already completing their personal statement. Congratulations to them! I am so proud to be surrounded by potential leaders of the world. I believe one day they will be on the TV screen and I'll say, "Look that's my friend on TV!". Most probably they'll be talking about Economics :) .

I feel like saying sorry to my parents because I can't apply to places like that. Well, everyone has their own limits and boundaries. I can't imagine locking up myself in a place full of geniuses. Ones that study all the time and ones that do not have to study but score all the time. Ahaaaaa. No thank you. I'd stay somewhere relaxing, where I feel like I fit in. The problem is, where is that? I still can't choose my five choices of universities, with my sponsor limiting me to the top 20 universities in UK. I have some places in mind but I still can't decide yet. Surely I'll seek help for this. 

Ramadhan is ending too, adding to the sad part of the story. 
It is quite of a tradition where the mosques are full in Ramadhan, alhamdulillah for that. However I do hope, I'll able to go to the surau more often during other months, insyaAllah. Good to know, there will be tazkirah on 'Islam and Health' every Monday. Somehow it will be more relevant for a Malay Muslim women to go to the surau when there is 'ceramah'. Mungkin sebab wanita Islam bersifat lebih tertutup? 
I want to learn so much more about my own religion and insyaAllah, Allah will be with me all the way :).

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